I am staring down my 30th birthday and it’s affecting me in a way I wouldn’t have thought it would. I am not worried about getting older in fact I look forward to it. I feel like 30 has been a long time coming. I am married, own my second home and have my dream job (although it is turning out to be much more demanding and stressful than I thought it would be). Given all of these things you would think I would already feel like a grown up, but I don’t. It’s the little things that bother me and make me feel like I am living like a teenager. With my birthday looming I feel a lot of internal pressure to figure these things out. Mostly it’s balance that I think I need to figure out. I can’t seem to train for races with consistency AND keep my house from being a mess. I can’t seem to take my job seriously without letting my friendships lag, or take care of my yard and be a responsible pet owner, etc. etc. etc. I feel like I can’t ever get it all done without being exhausted and overstressed, I can’t even imagine trying to do all this AND have kids! How do people do it? How does everyone else fit it all in?
Ok, enough pity partying for me, back to work!